Right Now-Kat Deluna Feat Akon

Sleepless night
All that I could think about was us
And the way that only you know how to touch me
I try to move on
But I know I`m just fooling myself
Don`t wanna be kissed,touched,loved
Or give my heart to someone else

I wanna make up ... na na na
But before we make up ... na na na
Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

I wanna make up ... na na na na na
But before we make up ... na na na na na
Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

Girl I know mistakes were made between us to
And we show our eyes that night even said some things weren`t true
Why`d you go and haven`t seen my girl since then
Why can`t it be the way it was
You were my homie, lover and friend

I wanna make up ... na na na
But before we make up ... na na na
Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

I wanna make up ... na na na na na
But before we make up ... na na na na na
Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

Don`t lie (Don`t lie)
Promise everyday you`re gonna try (Try)
To make me feel like everything`s alright (Make me feel alright)
Like I`m the apple of your eye (Of your eye)

I wanna make up ... na na na
But before we make up ... na na na
Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

I wanna make up ... na na na na na
But before we make up ... na na na na na
Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

I wish I could fly with you
I wish I could lie with you (Lie with you)
I just wanna dine with you (Dine with you)
Get on my grind with you


P/S:aq suke part bold 2 jewx...but still enjoyin d song....

Aq Ridiculous!!!So wat??Sape Suwoh Bace??

Ari nie aq x malas ag....x mau copy paste ari nie...
Tgnku gtl nak menaip....
Owhh...yeah~ade org tanye aq bout ea...
Sorry aq x contact ea since mlm 2....
Msg yg aq bg pown x berbls..
Ade org ckp ea tukar phone no...
Owww..plsss..aq x mau tau...
Bia lah ea....nak mati..nak idup..
Aq x lagi ign tau....


Aq x mrh cume kalo aq msh amik taw aq makin windu...
Itu bkn sebb utama...
D main reason....ea x dulikkan aq..jadi kenapa aq hrus pedulikn ea....

Syg....
Watlah ape awax suke...
By xkn larang...
Nak lepak kat kedai cina 2 minum smpay pg...buatlah~
Nak mkn nospan smpay 10 bijik....buatlah~
Nak mgatal....buatlah~
Cuma sampai 1 saat...kalo awak sakit...
Awak mst gtaw by...(owh...aq janji aq xkan pulangkn paku buah keras)
By nak ada kat awak waktu awak chaket...
Kalo bkn sbg gf...tapi by msh anggap awak kwn...
Huh~kwn kew??hehee~


Ok2...im bein ridiculous...AGAIN!!!


Pelik...heart-break kali nie x lame...
Patut pon kan....hubungn kami pown x lame...
Jadi x perlu aq menangis...menangisi menda yang ntah ape2...

Tenkiu Mal....
Coz mal slaloo ade saat by cedey...
Eventho awak xnak tlg by contact kan ea...
But it ok....im lettin everything go...
Pegilah sume memory...jgn balik2 ag...
Sakit taw x???
Sedey taw x???
Windu sgt2 taw x???


Ade ramai tanye...jadi after this sape yg jadik pilihan ati...
Yang penting...org yg serius...
Bkn lagi org yang create 1000 alasan utk putus...

Aq gf yg teruk kew??
Kalo duloo aq percaye jwpnnye YES!!!
Tp since aq besa....ceh~besa r sgt...
Aq taw ape maksud compromise...
Aq taw ape maksud forgiveness...
Hey...ex-bf aq really damn terkejut bile aq bg ea angkat phone aq...
"Sejak bile awak bg org pegg hp awak??
Bkn duloo sy nak tgk pown smpay gado2 pown x bg..
Sejak bile pangay degil awak 2 hilang"

Hahaa~tp aq pelik kenapa relation kali nie sekejp gile...
Slah aq kew??
Owhh...ade yg ckp "ape yg hang tgk kat dak 2 pown aq x taw"
Jadik aq ase bkn slh aq...
Org mengadu...aq dgr...
Aq yakin kalo ea di tmpat aq...ea pown dgr gax kan...

Opppsss...im letting go isnt it...
So i've to stop writing bout 'him'...


Aq x diam ag...
Mlt aq dah becok alik...
X berenti menyanyi...
X berenti makn...(owh...since ngan ea..aq x lalu mkn..berat pown trun 2kg)
Terlampau bising...tp sume org bia jewx aq memekak...
Bos aq ckp
"Let her be...lebey bgus dr ea diam...i cant take it"

Besok spt seblom2 nie...
Ari aq berdating ngan mamat TGV...hehee~
Yeay!!!wayang day!!!
Terlmpau byk movie nax tgk...
But tomorrow mungkin CONFESSION OF A SHOPAHOLIC!!
Tp nak tgk Talentime gax...Fast N Furious pown...


Owhh...bknnye heart break kali nie x lame...
Tapi aq syg mama aq...
Dan aq x mau ea tgk aq terus sedey..
Terus nanes....
Aq xkn lukakan ati ea utk seseorg yg langsunx x taw maksud APPRECIATION


P/S:aq x lupe ENGLISH cume aq tetibe cintakn bhasa aq...

Sayangness.....Sory yek....

Sayangness.....sory 2-3 ari nie aq x bercakap...
Sory aq malas nak layan korang bergossip...
Ada sesuatu dlm otak aq...
Sesuatu yg korang tak akan paham...
jadi no point utk aq cerita...


Aq janji...diam nie tak akan lama...
Esok lusa aq bowak lah alik cam slaloo...


Rest lah dr sora aq wat sementara waktu yek...

Thanks coz korang concern...
Thanks coz korang bimbang...
Tapi aq perlu masa...

Untuk senyum...
Untuk bercakap...
Untuk gelak...
Untuk mengumpat...ngee~


P/S:dah 2 days kawan2 aq x nampak Nyet2...ane ea agaknye...
Ke Kuala Selangor mungkin??hurmmm~

U Rip Out My Heart!!!

Hurmm..terlampau lama tak menulis...
Aq lupa blog nie..lupe plurk..lupe Lulu J..lupe segala2nye..
Kerana dia!!!

Tapi semlm sumenye berakhir...
Terlampau sakit utk diingat...
tapi terlampau manis juga untuk terus aq lupakan...
Dia cakap dia belum bersedia...dan terlampau ramai yang menjaga hubungan kami...
Hingga dia rimas....huh~

Bagi aku itu sume alasn...
2 minggu lepas saat nie...
Aq di swimming pool...teman dia swimming...
Dan mlm nti adalah mlm dia propose aq...

Aq sengaja pakai dress yg sama hari ni...
Sama spt 2 minggu lepas...

2 minggu???terlampau pendekkan...
Aq belom puas sygkan dia...belom puas leterkan dia...

Walaupun semalam dia ckp..."if awak nak go on kita go on"
Tapi aq taw itu bkn yang dia nak kan...
Jadik aq tetapkan hati untuk putus...

Semlm sebelum dia pegi...spt biasa dia akan cium tgn aq...
Dan dia tgu untuk aq cium tgn ea...
Tapi aq keraskan ati...
Dan saat dia keluar dr rumah...aq cket pown x menoleh...
Aq jadik benci pd ea...

Ea hadir...beri aq kasih dan sayang...
Pupuk perasaan tu dlm hati aq...
Dan sekrg ea pegi....


SIAL!!!

Tapi aq masih care...
Masih ign ambil taw...
Masih ign terus larang dia makan 'nospan'
Masih ign terus urut belakg dia semasa dia muntah..
Masih ign terus paksa dia makan nasik..



P/S:aq noticed mata dia kuning...huh~risau tp dah tate ape2 yang aq blh buat...

Esok Cptlah tiba

Esok cepat lah datang...
Mungkin saya perlu tido sekarang....
So dat saya tak perlu tunggu terlampau lama...
Saya sunyi ea takde...
Tapi patut ker???



Tak kisah r....
Asalkan esok tiba...saya pasti saya OK!!!

URmmmm~

Saya ada sekumpulan kawan baru...
Dari tmpat yang amat berbeza dr saya...
Dibesarkn dgn cara yang berlainan dari saya...
derang tak pandai mcm kwn2 saya yang lain..
Kerja pown biase2 jewx...
Tapi mereka fun amat...
Dan sangat2 protective...
Mereka syg mama saya...dan sgt2 ambil berat..
Derang sgt2 kelakar...i've been laughin so much nowadays....
And he's 1 of them...
I've been neglected 'his' presence until yesterday...
'He' fetched me from my work place...
Juz because i was embrassin to walk alone with my yellow balloon...
On d way back 'he' kept teasin me...impishly!!
But surprisingly....i enjoyed his naughtiness...
I not juz chortled...i was laughin out loud...
A lots of stranger lookin at us...
Wonderin what so funny...i guess!!

I enthralled by 'his' naughtiness,humour n d way 'he' protected me...
'He' surreptious askin my mama for my no...
And we've been msg-ing a lots now...
'He' even askin me to be with 'him'...



But there's something bout 'him' and that a damn obstacle for us to be together..
But if i can accept 'that' we can be together...
D question now....i can accept it or not...


Owhh....lupa!!
Mereka nie lebey tahu adab dari saya n kwn2 saya yg pandai2 belaka 2....

Never Ever-All Saints

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate

I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel righ

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find

I'm not crazy,
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad

Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, bab
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe


P/S:There's no motive...it juz everyday im listenin to this song at RED FM!!!

My New Sweetheart

His name is Blacky.Actually i dunno wether it he/her....
Cute rite??
At least now mama ok with Blacky at home.It feels like Temuk here again.
I miz Temuk....really wish he's here so that i can hug him.
A must thing to do now...i need to teach Blacky how to hug people.
Since Temuk not here...there's nobody there to hug me...
waaaaa~pathetic!!!Who cares...
Urmmm...i cant wait for my 'Toga dress' to arrive...
I wanna wear it on Saturday...goin to Ayamas!!!
Crazy!!!goin to Ayamas also wanna wear a dress....
Why???because i have a crush there...
His name Junaidi...
His smile irresistible...hahaa~
Enough2....




Owh..yeah~thanks to u coz gave Blacky to us!!!
It kinda like a sunshine after the rain!!!






P/S:i really like that Junaidi...but i dunno wether i shud make a 1st move or juz wait!!!u think??

Rindu Awak,Sayang Awak

Betul kan??
Saya nak dia...tapi tak dapat!!
Dia crush saya...tapi saya bukan crush dia!!
Dia cinta hati saya...tapi sayang dia pada saya sesaat cuma!!
Dia yang selalu ada dalam otak saya..
tapi saya sering dia lupakan!!
Saya bodoh internet...dia selalu tolong saya..
tapi sekarang saya belajar berjalan sendiri..
sebab tak ada lagi dia untuk saya harapkan!!
Dia selalu tahu apa ada dalam otak saya...
Sebab dia cakap 'hati awak ada kat saya dan hati saya ada kat awak'
Yeap saya selalu ingat tu...
Walaupun saya tahu dia tak dapat lagi baca otak saya sekarang.
Saya suka cakap dengan dia...
sebab dia buat saya selesa...
Tengok dia kat webcam buat saya ketawa...
walaupun dia tak buat kelakar...
Huh~




Dah lama dah putus...
Saya gatal putuskan semuanya...
Saya salah...tapi dia cakap dia akan tunggu saya..
Saya percaya...tapi dia tipu rupanya...



Saya rindu dia SEKALI LAGI!!!



P/S:bila saya tulis dalam malay maksudnya untuk 'sayang' saya sebab saya tak mahu dia faham...saya ego??yeap!!saya mengaku....

The End Of My Beloved Temuk...RIP Sweetheart!!!

They're digging the hole for buryin Temuk..




Can see the white thing in d hole...that is the cloth n paper that we wrapped my beloved Temuk..
That all pic that i can get....too emo too snap pic...

After this nobody will wait for me to wake up....normally when i wake up...
And open the door...he will run toward me n go into my room...
Jump onto my bed and sleep on my pillow....
Every mornin he will act like dat...
Every evenin when i came from work...i will lookin for him 1st...
And normally he still there on my bed...
He loves to sleep..maybe that why he so fat...
Some people here tought he was a dog...coz of his size....
His basketball jersey also we bought accordin to a dog's size....

But this mornin...when i woke up...he was not there...
But im late so i juz assumed he's sleepin with my mother...
Around 4 something my mother came at my work place...
And cryin..."By...temuk not at home"
I asked her to find him coz normally he's playin at our neighbour's house...
So she went to find him...not only her...
Onie,John,Ajak & Aman also went....[dat all my bros]
Accordin to mama's story....
She was at 8th floor then she heard 1 of them said...
"Mama...we've find him"
Then she felt relieved and asks them to bring him home...
But then they replied "He dead"
And she's cryin in front of the lift....
Yeah~sitting there n cryin...

Then Onie came back to my work place...
"Find him or not???"
"Yeah...but he's dead..."
"Haaaa......."
And i started cryin....i looked at my watch...4.40pm...
I cant go home...i waited for another 20mins...
That was the longest 20 mins in my whole life....

I called John..."Where's mother??"
He passed the phone to mother....
And all i can hear...
"Temuk said he wanna sleep...He dont wanna talk to u..."
She repeated that again n again...
My heart crashed...yeap!!mama really loves him more than she loves us...

I went back....went into my house...
This stupid house...why it in 16th floor...
If not my Temuk wont die...
I saw Temuk in my mother's hug...
I cried....and walked to her...
Grabbed my Temuk from her...hugged him...
His tongue slid out from his mouth...not all his tongue only a bit
His cheeks that i alwiz kiss bleed...
His body cold....
Crashed again...
His legs broken...
I dont wanna believe my eyes...
Cried again n again....

We buried him at the car park...
And on top of his grave we plant a plant that he loves to eat...
I dunno d name...but we bought it from Jusco every week...
Coz he loves to play with it n at last he'll eat it...
We buried him with his bear...his basketball jersey..
We threw away his stroller...
Yeap!!!he has stroller....
But we did keep all his toys...
His basket...his carrier...
All his things...

Rite now when im writing this..
Mama still cryin...me still cryin...
Yeap for some people he juz a cat...
But for me...he's 1 of us...
He's my family....i love him more than i love my bro...
Every single person family crying for him...
We miss him....
His voice...

I told him yesterday...
"Adik next month i'll change my contact lens to ur color of eyes...
So that we have a same eyes"
He understood me...i know he did...
Urghhh....i cant accept this....

"Putih Oren...Putih Oren...
Oh..Putih Oren...Pandang tak jemu...
Pandang tak jemu...
Oh..Putih Oren pandang tak jemu..."
This is his song..i alwiz sing this for him....
Now who i'll sing this song for....huh~
Damn it!!!
Why him...I have a lots of his pic in my Olympus...
But i have no mood to transfer it...
I'll do it later....
He's handsome rite...
Luckily Jane pregnant his kids...
So i juz hope there's 1 of the kitten will look exactly like him...
I hope!!!But Temuk will neva eva be replaced....

P/S:i told 1 of my fren....i neva eva have a funeral occasion in my closest family....
And suddenly today.....huh~there's a hole in my heart...i miz my Temuk!!!